8.1.15 poetry for sleep (and the soul)

"Don't let yesterday use up too much of today."

-Cherokee Proverb-

What do you do when you can't sleep at night?

I can never fall asleep. I guess when I'm trying to go to bed is when my mind decides the time is ripe for figuring out all the secrets to the universe.

Sadly, all that time spent is wasted, because I have yet to figure out anything, let alone things even Einstein couldn't touch.

Sometimes the stuff I think about it completely random, weird, pointless, etc. I remember one time I spent 15 minutes thinking about cake.

Cake.

I don't even really like cake.

Oftentimes my mind will get caught up in thinking about how I want to do something like a DIY project or how to crochet an afghan.

Or, if I were to build a tiny house, what it would look like.

Things that could very obviously wait to be thought about until tomorrow.

But sometimes

and lately, way too often

my mind just runs over and over my relationship/ex-relationship with my best friend/ex-best friend/ex-boyfriend/love of my life/worst person ever.

Obviously, I'm a bit confused

and only slightly bitter

but definitely sad.

So I like to write stuff down when I can't sleep. Putting it on paper gets it out of my head, at least temporarily.

Usually it's just some kind of journal-type entry, but with this one,

with this boy,

I started writing an uber-long poem.

I'm not sure why it happened that way.

But I liked it, so I kept it.

Here's the first bit:

because why not spill my guts to the strangers in the void?

How To Be Happy In 99 Steps Or More, Part I

01.Get ride of him.
02.He's not good for you.
03.You're losing all sense of rationality
04.or should I just say sanity?
05.Why don't you see it?
06.He's wool over your eyes.
07.You hang on his promises and overlook his lies.
08.You're not good enough to keep, yet he won't let you go.
09.Now you're the one who needs to take control.
10.The one thing that scares you most is how your happiness starts.
11.I'm so sorry it's this way, you know
12.but you have to do it.
13. You have to do it.
14.You must let him go.
15.You must break your own heart.